on today

She started breaking, but she still won't let it show- Stars (Big Fight)
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I'm tired of pretending that everything is always fine-

Doesn't it always seem the same?

I'm not supposed to be living this life. This is not the way it was all supposed to work out-this is not where I wanted to be, these are not the people I thought I'd be around, and this isn't who I thought I was.

Once upon time people believed in me-

where did I lose myself?

When did it stop being what I wanted and start being a living nightmare?

I can't remember the last time I was happy. I don't even know if I know what happy is, anymore. I go through the steps and smile when I think is right and no one knows the difference-

why would they?

I've never really felt this alone around so many people-

and there's nothing to do but keep on.